I have often wondered…am I enough? Am I attractive enough, talented enough, smart enough, strong enough….am I enough?
I am realizing that all of those questions pertain to how I am perceived by other people and not how I perceive myself. I can’t say that I don’t care if other people feel any of those things about me but I can say that I haven’t felt many of those things about me.
I am learning, growing….loving and liking me, all new feelings for me. It may sound odd but who I am to me hasn’t ever really been established. I shy away from compliments and I’ve never really praised myself because….well, I’m not quite sure why.
I am learning to become more Thankful…
Thank you body of mine for holding me up when I felt like curling up and dying, for my legs that run miles without stopping, for my hands that have wiped away tears and touched warm faces, my feet that love fantastic shoes but can still appreciate soft, fleece bed sheets.
Thank you brain for allowing me to think on my feet, be creative even though I doubt myself, be funny when I feel like it, hold onto my thoughts of shoes and fashionable things.
Thank you eyes for allowing me to see beautiful faces, things and places.
To my ears, you are critical to my hearing the cries of little tears, belly laughs, my name being called in English and Spanish, the words of criticism that fuel me to keep going, the words..”I think you are beautiful”.. thank you so much.
Lastly…My heart…how precious you are, I have allowed others to mistreat you, I have tried to stop you from beating and yet you continue to pump blood through my veins. Thank you for never letting go, for your unending desire to beat faster when I am excited, aroused or afraid. Thank you for fueling my entire body…
In this moment, I am enough…